Thanful to God!

I just want to say I’m so thankful to God!
My life has drastically changed in Christ.
I grew up ‘good’.
But I was far from God.
He broke into my life… unexpected… unwanted… attractive.
I resisted… enjoyed darkness more.
But He was irresistible…
I love my parents…
I love where I’m from…
but God has broken in… and changed me deep.
I don’t know how to explain it. I’m far from perfect. I’m still messed up in ways unexplicable.
But by Grace… he saves… sustains… changes… me.
Me.
Why me?
I want all to know.
I’m not religious. I’m broken… in need of a God who loves unconditionally.
Not based on me… not based on my actions… not based on my “Pastoring”…
I need GRACE!
Could this really be true? Is this real? Is it all in my mind?
No!
Reality… axiomatic truths… justice… grace… paradox… all matches up with Jesus… though I can’t even really explain it.
I have an amazing wife… by grace.
We painfully struggled… no children… and I amazingly have a beautiful Indian daughter…
My wife suffers with chronic pain… suffering… why do I still believe…
He is good…
My life is so “right”.
I want others to know the relationship of a Father who is perfectly “Good” and perfectly “Loving”…
though i’m so in ept…
He is not.
He is good.
He is loving.
Give in…
Please… to Him…
He really does love you. He is hope. Mercy. Goodness. Rightness.
Give in to Him.
Mark